Without You

Dear Pink Panther
Everyday the 3 ladies in your life made some sharing about you...those eyes that I see..the girls really do missed you dadi...you be good there...no more wrinkling of those forehead...I pray that you are at peace with Yourself and our Heavenly Father. Remember our wedding theme song? Just Be Happy...Don't worry...and that was also your final revelation message to everyone when you were in Nilai...Be happy dadi Pink Panther!!!!

WITHOUT YOU...

Its such a miserable feeling...its no joke to say that everything reminds me of you...please send me angels to say that you are doing fine there dadi...my Pink Panther...missing you so much...all the tears will never bring you home to us...going to sleep is near to impossible and in waking up makes me shed tears...in knowing that you are no longer around...I have no one to pamper anymore...no more rush hours for me. Love you forever..

Without You

Hello Pink Panther...I wished you can read all this postings...today is Holy Family Day...
So sad...just BB Yon and myself at church this Sunday morning...you are not with us...BB Yen went for her driving course...cannot imagine how much more of these moments and feelings of emptiness we are going to have to go thru...Daddy we miss you so much...how I wished you can just make a come back...just come home to us..

Without You

Those were the days....flash back time on them memories
that lingers on...

Without You...

Christmas eve without you..yup Pink Panther...that's a blue Christmas without you...went for mass at Stella Maris...felt so awkward... just the girls and myself this time around...they sang one of our favorite song...It came upon a midnight clear...can imagine you singing out loud to that song...we always request for this song when the caroling group come for xmas carols...remember? Friends and acquaintances comes around to convey condolences and xmas wishes...how i wished they don't remind me...but i know they mean well. Anyway...dadi...do you see Santa there? Sitting at our Heavenly Father right hand side? You must be having a grand rejoicing moment there...you don't come visit us here kah? We go ngabang all over the place...like always...that's silly talk for you today and your answer would be...Bodohhhh...dadi..dadiiii...miss your bodohnesss...Grant eternal rest upon Simon, let perpetual light shine upon him and may his soul rest in Peace...Amen

BB Yon PMR result 7A's

Hey Pink Panther
Our BB Yon got 7A's for her PMR exam....wished you were here to knock knock on her coconut head...she so excited about it...now she want to look for balloons and the gas to fly it to you...so that you can see her achievement...i am sure you are very proud of her...the best christmas gift to all of us...though you are gone...love you...

Without You

Hello Pink Panther
Its Christmas dear...we were planning to spend it together with Uthan and Wennie...at their new home. They also sayang you so much...I know Uthan has been looking forward to that drinking session with you and all the Christmas cheerings to the tables,chairs and the endless "one for the road"... But then you left us and here I am spending this Christmas WITHOUT you. At times I wonder how can you be so selfish by not sharing with me of your pains and sickness earlier. There are so many "IFs"....and my tears will never washed them away.
Why you left and abandon me in such critical moments? The girls will need your guidance and advice so badly...but when I remember how you used to talk to them about how well they can cope and carry themselves...I felt waves of peace flowing through. I guessed thats your legacy to them. Please pray for us on earth here dadi...that we will be fine without you.
May the angels and saints be with you always and also Mama Mary and Jesus our Lord.
Love and Miss you so much...

Without You

Dear Pink Panther...
Wherever you are...
Are you looking down at the three of us from heaven...
If you are doing just that...
Would like you to know that We missed you so much...
Words just never enough to express all that..
You must be laughing till you get all wrinkled up there kan dadi?

I have to admit life is not any easier now that you are gone...
At times I wonder if it really for a good caused...
Or more heartbreaks to come...
Where can I go and what will I do from now
If not for the girls I just want to do nothing at all and continue to mourn your loss...
ALONE...away from all these...
Till God decide its time for me to go and meet you...
Love you dadi PINK PANTHER....

Week 1 - Without You

Engelbert Humperdink...There goes my everything..thank you for such a nice and beautiful song that I can relate myself to...
Yes there goes everything...this morning upon waking up I felt so empty...gone are the mornings when I rushed to see how you are doing...asking how is the pain, did you sleep well...what would you like to eat today Dadi? No more blending fruit juices for you,no more pressure cooking...no more setting breakfasts and forcing you to eat all those food and with all these my only hope is we can fight the cancer...ciao...and God bless

Final Scene of Pink Panther,Adenocarcinoma & Me

The scene ends here...15th December, 2009 at 1:15pm...peacefully Pink Panther left us at Prince Court Medical Centre, Kuala Lumpur. No amount of words can express how we all feel...only God almighty know best...but whatever it is...Pink Panther will always be close to our heart...among family,friends and relatives. The funeral mass was at St Anthony Church Bintulu and his body was laid to rest at the Catholic Cemetery on the 19th December, 2009...ciao and God bless...

The family

My very last goodbye and wishes for you

The Sacred Heart of Jesus & Immaculate Mother Mary accompanying you

Sending you home with prayers

The things that Aunty Rebecca laboured herself thru for the love of you

Goodbyes...and goodbyes... endlessly...may you go with the angels and the saints

Pink Panther & Prince Court Medical Centre

Today Pink Panther is quiet...must be exhausted from all the excitement yesterday...Charraine, mummy and daddy arrived from Bintulu yesterday. He continued his opera singing...did some writing or rather scribbling away....his request was to have dinner with Dr Kana and the nurses...with the doctors and nurses in Prince Court...nice dinner,ice cream...make that vanilla please... and Australian red wine...ended with OK...and signed off his signature...

BB Yonn birthday today...15th birthday...sang birthday song in the ICU room...Helen and Dora brought Chocolate cake for her...

Pink Panther - Still in Prince Court Medical Centre

The waiting is extended from Monday 7th December till today...the minute my mind remembers Pink Panther my tears would trickle and there I go sniffling away and BB Yonn will ask...Why you mummy? My reply...mmm just thinking...
Anyway today as usual came in to visit Pink Panther around 10am...the nurse shared that he was singing away last night mumbling away to that song...Persembahan ku...must have entertained the other patients too. So today he was so drowsy...did not move much. Father Valentine came in the afternoon to say prayers and gave him Holy Communion.

Dear All...lets pray for strength,deliverance,conversion and forgiveness for Pink Panther and also for ourselves...and may healing comes...that's all for now..Ciao...

Pink Panther & Prince Court Medical Centre, KL

Dear all..its been a while...a long while...
Since 3rd November, 2009...my days have been so hectic...it goes like this...

6th November,2009
Pink Panther..BB Yonn and myself flew back to Land of The Hornbills today...our flight was delayed for almost 2 hours...in the end we have to change aircraft.
Being home was supposed to be a "Home sweet Home" scenario but in the end it turn out differently...stressed us out actually...the 1st week being home was an adjustment period for Pink Panther..2nd week was an improvement period...end of 3rd week was a going down hill for him...coming to the beginning of the 4th week was a disorientated week...in between those weeks...the scenes were...nights with high fever...persuasion in eating and lots of discomfort...in the end after consultation with Dr Lau and Dr Kana we flew back earlier and that was 2nd December, 2009 to the battlefield....NCI

At NCI...from 2nd December til 5th December, 2009
Immediately upon arrival we were admitted to the ward...
Through out the night...Pink Panther was restless...and I was without the Vitamin Sleep...nothing new for me..feels like a zombie...
The next morning went for scan on his brain...the outcome was...pressure and fluid within and that results in him being admitted to the Intensive Care Unit for close monitoring...there were times that he knew me and he is not aware of his surroundings...lots of amusing moments too...

With these we were referred to Prince Court Medical Center to see a neurosurgeon..Dr Jagdeep.
All arrangements were made by NCI and we were driven by an ambulance that morning to the ER...appointment was at 9am and after consultation with Dr Jagdeep all issues were put out front for me to digest...not a pleasant one.
1st option...just to wait and do nothing and Pink Panther will end up in coma...2nd option was just to drain the fluid with the possibility of the pressure and fluid to reoccur...and 3rd option was to go for the major works...operation to remove the tumor and drain the fluid and be prepared for the risks that comes with it...

Dr Jagdeep: How do you feel about this?
Bumblebee: How do I feel? Blank....for me to be responsible for Pink Panther's life...Lord help me....come to my aid now.....fasssssttt...
Dr Jagdeep: You think about it first...
Bumblebee:....think?????

I went back to Pink Panther with BB Yonn close by me...i told him why we were in Prince Court and the scenario...knowing very well that he would not be remembering all that I have pour out to him at that moment...but yet he confidently said...Lets do it Mami....

I called my parents and finally Dr Kana...for words of comfort and to know that I will be doing and deciding what is best for Pink Panther...

Bumblebee: I will gamble for this operation..I will be strong..I will take the risks...what ever comes...

A word of comfort that comes to my mind from my dearest and closest friend...WEBET...Take and bear that CROSS silently like Mother Mary...ok...SILENTLY...God bless you abundantly WEBET...


1:30pm
The operation was to be done...signed all the necessary forms and the waiting was like 3 hrs....but it was only at 5:30pm that I received a called from the nurse to inform me that Pink Panther was out from the operation room...from there....it was a scene of waiting...seizures...and lots of prayers...and till today. But overall the operation turned out well with no complications and for now we just wait and pray....till then CIAO all and GOD BLEss...

NCI Hospital & Specialist - Scene 9

The dates...numbers and months rolling by and its unbelievable...today its 3rd November, 2009!!!!! Sighing endlessly...i don't see beautiful sunsets on the weekends anymore...so sad...anyway...Pink Panther's bone injection..Zometa is deferred to tomorrow. He complains of severe headaches to Dr Kana at the clinic this morning...may be due to the sleeping patterns and also the effects of the treatment. Hopefully tonight Pink Panther will sleeps soundly and vanished away those attacks of headaches by tomorrow...please,please..please.. Lord God Almighty come to our aid now and intervene....Amen

NCI Hospital & Specialist - Scene 8

Well today Thursday 29th October, 2009 marks the end of our Phase 1 journey at NCI Hospital & Specialist, Nilai..completed the radiotherapy treatment...later we went to see Dr Kana at his clinic and the decision on the final date to come back to NCI for Phase 2 was confirmed...6th December, 2009.
So that's a month break...for now we are still deciding on when is the best date to fly back...because we still need to come back to the clinic on Monday, 2nd November, 2009 for blood test and also for the Zometa injection to strengthen his bone structure or in other words to reduce any complications such as pain and fractures caused by the bone metastasis. We hope to be home in Bintulu after that and so...ciao to all ...

My BibleWalk...

My BibleWalk is my sharing of verses for the day...

Titus 3:1-15

1 Remind your people to submit to the government and its officers. They should be obedient always and ready to do what is good.
2 They must not speak evil of anyone and they must avoid quarreling. Instead they should be gentle and show true humility to everyone.
3 Once we, too were foolish and disobedient. We were misled by others and became slaves to many wicked desires and evil pleasures. Our lives were full of of evil and envy. We hated others, and they hated us. 4 But then God our Saviour showed us his kindness and love.
5 He saved us, not because of the good things we did, but because of his mercy. He washed away our sins and gave us a new life through the Holy Spirit.
6 He generously poured out the Spirit upon us because of what Jesus Christ our Saviour did.
7 He declared us not guilty because of his great kindness. And now we know that we will inherit eternal life.
8 These things I have told you are all true. I want you to insist on them so that everyone who trusts in God will be careful to do good deeds all the time. These things are good and beneficial for everyone.
9 Do not get involved in foolish discussions about spiritual pedigrees or in quarrels and fights about obedience to Jewish laws. These kinds of things are useless and a waste of times.
10 If anyone is causing divisions among you, give a first and second warning. After that, have nothing to with that person.
11 For people like that have turned away from the truth. They are sinning, and they condemn themselves.

NCI Hospital & Specialist - Scene 7

So today is Pink Panther's final chemo treatment for this Phase 1...and tomorrow will be his final radiotherapy. Pink Panther's condition still remains the same...nothing changes. Today met up with Dr Kana & Dr Selva...up to this date Pink Panther is progressing well. There has been a remarkable improvement since our departure from Normah Specialist Kuching. Dr Kana also shared that the lesion on his lung has also shrinked to a certain extent too after the 1st chemo was injected...finally that's the news that we all have been waiting and dying for...and it's an instant relief to the ears and comfort too.
So seeing Bintulu soon????? Heeee3...no comments...but my anxieties about certain issues and matters remained as a question mark...known to me alone. Taking one day at a time...
Anyway there is 3 weeks break from tomorrow till our next review session and the tentatively date is 19th November,2009. But we shall see how it goes...as we take our steps ....tutututt.... one day at a time...
So ciao...

My BumbleMumbles...

....My blue bleeding HEART...

Dear Lord...
It can be so heavy at times..the cross that I am carrying,dragging and holding on to...where do I go from here..what can I do about it? I know no one will understand..but what about YOU? Will you listen..will you lightened this burden..this pain? Sometimes it is easier said than done and at times I do feel the Spirit of strength overflowing within me...but you know Lord...no matter what others said..be it words of encouragement or comfort...the pains will always remained within my soul..till the moment and time comes...for the door of your kingdom opens up to receive me...i will continue to cry and weep in SILENT...where only YOU know all....

NCI Hospital & Specialist - Scene 6

Well...its been a long break...16th October, 2009 was the last blog posting from bumblebee's corner...we are going into the last week of October, 2009.

This morning...27th October, 2009 is exactly 2 months from where our journey started with our first visit to Timberland Medical Center in Kuching. How time flies..day in and day out..and here we are still in NCI...supposed to be our last week of treatment for this trip. Dr Kana says that last treatment will be this Thursday, 29th October, 2009 and by Friday morning we can pack our bags and fly home to Bintulu. The blood test taken today was really good...all blood counts are cooperating with Pink Panther...plus upon taking my advice to go to bed early...so that is a good rest and proper food intake. So at the point of writing this blog we have 2 more radiotherapy and 1 more chemotherapy to complete for this round until we come back again after 3 weeks break and tomorrow morning will be Pink Panther's chemo plus radiotherapy.
Overall..he is doing fine..no attacks of fever or vomiting. It was just the feeling of grogginess and lost of appetite for him after his last chemo which was on the 22nd October, 2009. However the mood swings is unbearable...sometimes i feel like screaming and saying...heyyyy...being a caregiver is also not so pleasant...please do spare me some kind and merciful thoughts too..after all I am only human and I do need some "TLC" moments at some point of time.





But each time when this unhealthy feelings comes by...a picture of Pink Panther looking and being so fragile and vulnerable floods my mind and it touches my heart and that somehow brought me down to earth...thumpedddd... and.... owchhhhh...it really hurts and so there goes my anger...O Lord pour upon me Spirit of Love,Joy,Patient and Understanding....Amen
Till then...ciao to all...

NCI Hospital & Specialist - Scene 5

Dear All..everything is good and well...that is what we pray and plan for in our deepest thoughts. So the days and dates comes rolling by us..sometimes I wake up in the morning..and ask myself...what's the date...and day? The mind can really failed me at times...being cooped up in this hospital..almost a month..come to think of it..arrived here 23rd September, 2009.

One thing for sure...we definitely get lots of peace here compared to Kuching...I cry out...Freedom..at long last...hahaaa...from those unbelievable so called comfort and caring individuals. Please do forgive me for sounding so ungrateful but then as the saying goes...too much of a good thing can be very damaging to our soul...but yet who will even bother to try to undertand us...however not all fits into that one category...God bless them.

Anyway...there was a change in the treatment schedule for Pink Panther...starting 15th October, 2009 he will undergo 10 sessions or fractions of radiotherapy and in between he will be given 2 rounds of chemotherapy...all these will end sometimes towards the end of October...and then it will be 3 weeks break...so the tentative date to come back to Nilai was 23rd November, 2009.

NCI Hospital & Specialists Centre...Scene 4

Hello there...my avid and keen readers who comes and go from the bumblebee's corner...
Pink Panther was exposed to my blog when we were strikened with this notorious cancer...and he asked me...Mami why bumblebee?
Yeahhh...why bumblebee? Now I wonder too..why that? May be its just me...buzzing left and right..in and out of people's life and scene...and its cute....hahaaaa...
Anyway...back to my scene...at Nilai Cancer Institute...so far we were handled with tender loving care all the way...by the centre's oncologist Dr Kananathan..bless him Lord for his gentle ways and patience and understanding. The 25th September, Friday 2009 we were sent to National Cancer Society in KL for Pink Panther's bone scan...a real satisfaction and a real comfort to me knowing that the spread of the notorious Mr Cancer is only at some points which were known to us earlier and not as I have gravely imagined when it was explained by the doctors in Kuching. According to them Pink Panther's prognosis were not so promising...into stage 4 and I was even given 6 months...Can you my dear bloggers imagine that? I was told to go home...and get things in order...is that supposed to make me feel better...was it supposed to comfort me in this dispairing moment? God...please be there for me...that was all that i whispered to my mind and heart...when I do fall please Lord, provide me with all the cushions...and make my fall a feather light one...and capture me in your mighty and loving comforting arms...the picture here....remember that furry mammal..Tarzan and Jane...that is what i will need...catch me please Lord when I do fall and collapsed...Amen
So back to Pink Panther and his treatment... a chemo port was planted on the evening of 24th September, 2009..that's where all the medications go thru..no more pricking on the blood veins where it leaves your body with black and blue bruises and daily blood tests were done to monitor his blood count..red and white blood count..while in between planning for his treatment were laid out and explained by Dr Kana. On Wednesday, 30th September, 2009 was planned..Pink Panther's 1st chemotherapy...the medications invovled were Cetuximab,Vinorelbine and Cisplatin....what a mouthful that is...anyway they are all drugs to combat them cancer cells. The 1st reaction to Cetuximab brought Pink Panther to the North Pole...he was shivering throughout...with high fever. The joke here was..he saw penguins...and for myself...speechless beyond words..i watched all the medical administrations given to him..and coincidently it was the hour of mercy...so dearest St Faustina I prayed for her intercession to the dear Merciful Divine Master...thru the Chaplet of DIVINE MERCY....once again...the Lord let his presence known to me...he is indeed walking beside me...at the very significant moment...a time of need thru this trial...Praise the Lord!!! The chemotherapy was continued the next day with the other 2 medications. On the 2nd October, 2009 we were discharged from the ward and we moved to my room on the residential wing. Then the day came...Saturday, 3rd October, 2009..what i feared the most...the much awaited reaction..FEVER...he was shivering and came the fever...immediately called the nurse and we were told to go to the emergency ward for assistance...in the end we were admitted....back to the ward again...so the continuos up and down of fever continued for next few days...the blood count was badly affected...injections were given to perk up the body's own production of the white blood cells..so that weekend was spent back in the ward again. On 5th October, 2009 morning we were told by Dr Kana that the schedule for the next chemotherapy was cancelled..due to the fact he needed time to strengthen his system..body resistance. The next chemotherapy session will be scheduled for next week..tentatively on the 14th and 15th October, 2009 so its a good break for me to feed him and regain his strength....so ciao to all who peeps into bumblebee's corner.

Pink Panther and Me...Scene 3

The surgery is over and done with...now we wait if its a success..eliminating the pain and numbness and to get back the strength. Apart from all these we are already considering into moving some where else to seek further treatment and chances of recovery. This was a very difficult decision to make but the recommendations to move on was so strong...now for a moment we stop thinking of the conveniences and the comfort zone that we are getting and receiving while in Normah Kuching...so we pray for guidance in our decision and based on that prayers Pink Panther finally decides to move to NCI Hospital & Specialist, KL. So the date to move was Wednesday 23rd September, 2009...with all the transfer requirements made we finally get to Nilai at 1430 hrs...everything was so smoothly done.

Pink Panther and Me...Scene 2

Home..onward to Bintulu...spent a few days at home...waiting for the biopsy result and on Thursday 3rd September, 2009 we left home again and this time straight to Normah Specialist Kuching...appointment with the Orthopedic Specialist..admitted to the ward for further scans and X-ray onto the bump on the forehead,lung and spine. The next day the much awaited result of the biopsy was known and it was related to the earlier lung biopsy. On Saturday 5th September, 2009 we met up with oncologist from SGH for further diagnosed and treatment plans were laid out for us. The 1st radiotheraphy treatment was scheduled on 7th September, 2009 and carried out at SGH onto the forehead and the spine for 5 times ending 11th September,2009.
Following this the next treatment plan is the lung part for 10 times and it was scheduled on the 14th September,2009 and to end on the 25th September, 2009 and it was after undergoing 2 radiotheraphy treatment on the lung that complications sets in...Pink Panther could not go for his toilet business as usual and the strength to his right legs was reduced tremendously. After consultation with the Orthopedic specialist an urgent surgery was needed to relieve him of the pain and numbness on his right leg and also to ease the bowel movement problems. So surgery was set up on the 16th September, 2009 to decompress the nerve on the spine. With that done the next thing was to wait for the uncertainties that comes with the surgery...ciao for now...to be continued...

Pink Panther and Me....Scene 1

Prayers comes flooding in...words of comfort too were pouring in...from friends and relatives..thanking all who came with good wishes and not forgetting the baskets of fruits and gifts to share in this time of sufferings...what to say then? I rather remain in my silence and endlessly converse with God. I pray that our merciful Lord will pour upon Pink Panther his Spirit of Counsel and healing continuosly.

This Scene 1 started with our initial visit to Timberland Medical Centre in Kuching dated 27th August, 2009 for further check up with the ENT specialist...CT scan and also a biopsy was done on his lung. The next day appointment was to Normah specialist Centre Kuching to see an Orthopedic Specialist for the pain that was troubling him in his right leg. There X-Rays and MRI was scheduled for him. Once this was over we were told to come back in a few days time for the report and by then the biopsy report will be known....so off we went home to Bintulu...that was a relief...and the anxiety begins for us all...but yet I know with God's amazing grace we will sail thru this moment....

Pink Panther and Me - A new episode

Gospa...please intercede for my needs and my loved ones...Amen

September 2009..a new beginning and episode that will remain close to my heart...I firmly believe that this is God's work...HIS mysterious ways in working his way into our life...his creations...shaping us into his likeness. When we look at ourselves left and right..up and down...it will get more complicated by the day..questions wander through our thoughts...what am I? Who am I? Why is this happening? What have I done or what have I not done? Where is HE that promises to be near me when the going gets though? Where is HE that will catch me when I fall?
Well...surprises and surprises...HE is there...here and everywhere...no mankind will provide...only the GOD Almighty...who loves us through and through..knows no bounds...loving us endlessly..it is just Us...so blind and ignorant and insensitive to HIS most Holy Presence...remember that inner thoughts that speaks to us...now that is HIM...please receive and listen to HIM attentively. HE knows all and listens...just that sometimes we demand all things to be dealt with in an express manner. So to all my friends,relatives,loved ones and the "Angels of Medugorje" listen with your ears...pray with your loving heart and act with a gentle grace.....ciao..God blesses all who visits...

Sunsets...my Passion

Some of the sunsets photos that i took and never get to share it on any social networks...
Sunsets...always fascinates me...the moments so captivating...gives me a nice feeling of tranquility..peace..and serenity...the effects of sunsets to me..



Sunsets...God's mighty works...separates day and night
When it comes...we call it the end of another day's activities...
God's living creatures returns to its home...
Time to rest..time to ponder...time to pray...for thanksgiving
The blessings and the graces that we received for the day...




You...Sunsets.. is a magnificent art that God portrays for us mankind
And for us to indulge in its natural beauty...
To remind us...what an awesome God we have...



Come... Sunsets...be there for me...today...tomorrow...and forever
As my awesome God does...will remain there...
Always there...day and night.

Letter to Mother Mary

Sharing with all of you what crosses my pathway this morning...a loving letter to our blessed Mother Mary who silently watches over us,continuous interceding for us,enfolding us in her loving arms,guiding and protecting us at all times.

Dearest Mother...

Today I met a stranger
Even though a brief encounter, it got me to wonder.
You know I am a sinner, yet you have made me a winner.
Sometimes when I look at what I have and then compare it to what I would like to have, I am very disappointed.
Then at other times when I look at what I have and compare it to what I truly deserves, I kneel in gratitude to You, for I deserve nothing....

You have always been by my side.
You have shared my most profound happiness and deepest sorrows.
You have laughed with me.
You have cried with me.

When the burdens of this world seems to crush,
When the tide of despair seem to drown me and when life seems so bleak and there seem to be no reason to live a moment longer..
In Your own way you were there...
Sometimes in the form of a friend, sometimes in the form of a stranger...
But Mother, most of all...
Thank you for all the times when you were there and I did not even know it.

Dearest Mother...
Help me to emulate You
Give me the grace and the strength to be humble like you...
for humility is the virtue upon which all other virtues are build on.

Mother...
help me to be charitable and generous, so as to be able to love like our Lord who loves unconditionally.

Mother Mary...
Please guide and help me to give back what you have always given me...
Give me the privilege to be your instrument...
Make me a lamp that gives light to those in darkness...
Transform me so that I am no longer a stranger to those whom You sent me to meet...
So that through me and because of You the stranger and I would be stranger no more but a reflection of You...a true friend to all.

Sunday School..."Proclaimation of GOD's Kingdom".

This morning the lesson was..."Proclaimation of GOD's Kingdom"....where have we heard this or where have we come across this...a simple answer is from The Luminous Mysteries...the third mystery. So what do we understand by Jesus proclaiming God's Kingdom on earth? Jesus came in person just to do that and HE was the much awaited Messiah who was to share with us the knowledge and the messages that comes with it through GOD's living word and that is our BIBLE. As we listen and understand through the parables that Jesus shared in Matthew 13...the parable of The Sower..the parable of The Weeds and the Wheat..the parable of the Mustard Seed and the parable of the Yeast we are being made to understand the mysteries of GOD's kingdom which is not a place or buildings but actually the values of everyday Christians living and which are peace,joy,love and righteousness.
Jesus was asked why he talks in parables and HE answered in such manner..in verse Matt 13:13...Therefore I speak to them in parables, because seeing they do not see, and hearing they do not hear, nor do they understand. With this I came across this passage from Isaiah 6:9-10

And HE said, "Go, and tell this people:

Keep on hearing, but do not understand
Keep on seeing, but do not perceive

Make the heart of this people dull
And their ears heavy
And shut their eyes
Lest they see with their eyes
And hear with their ears
And understand with their heart
And return and be healed."

Thanking all for giving time to read this posting...God bless all..

Procrastination... this is sinning to myself...to GOD the creator...the sin of laziness...
The questions that will and might pops out are..why..what..how? My other passion besides cooking..baking..munching..."sunsetting"...that's from my limited edition vocabulary list which is known only to me...to share with you.. are writing and photography. Day by day I kept telling myself that today i will find time to sit and write something and get on with my 1st assignment but i always have other issues that will deter me from doing so. So hopefully by posting it on my blog it will remind me of the urgency that i have to scribble away and get busy with words and alphabets. Hey...wait a minute..i have actually started...i am writing right? Fine...and bravo to me...will continue next in my next posting..ciao to all...

Donuts Attack...on a Sizzling Sunday Afternoon

Its crazy...its madness...its awesome...my first attempt of making my own donuts...though the looks of my donuts is not as "mouth watering" as Apple Donuts...but yet it was a real 1st attempt success....no...wait...a blessing from GOD...as per Fr John's sermon this morning...
I have been craving for donuts for ages...and yesterday i bought the donuts recipe book and so without wasting any more precious moments...I decided to venture...
So after my Ice City treat with the children i bought my ingredients and it was...bumblebee buzz and buzzed in the kitchen...
Its really indeed a blessing when someone finally invented that machine that we called the "bread machine". It certainly makes sense when it comes to preparing the dough for the donuts...
The task was so much lighter and burden lifted when it comes to the kneading and rubbing part...i hate that...but with a bread maker...its really a GOD sent kitchen helper.
From today onwards we will see more donuts coming from my kitchen...still not satisfied with the results, even though it was a "finger licking" donuts.. because i have yet to perfect the finishing touch of my donuts...close to Apple donuts standard...well..no harm in targetting that level...right?
The recipe? Anyone who is interested it is as per details:

A:
400g High Protein flour
100g Superfine flour
10g instant yeast

B:
80g sugar
10g salt
20g milk powder

C:
1 egg
250g cold water

D:
100g butter

Method:
1. Mix A..add in B..and then C
2. Beat at medium speed for 5 minutes and add in D.
3. Mix for further 10-15 mins un til it is smooth and elastic.
4. Leave the dough on floured surface, covered with plastic sheet and let it rise for 30 minutes.
5. Roll out the dough to 1-1.5 cm in thickness and rest for 10 mins.
6. Cut it out and transfer to a floured tray and leave aside for a further 30 mins.
7. Heat up sufficient oil and fry till golden brown.
8. Dish out and drain, let it cool before coating with fine caster sugar.

I hope this DIY donuts will stir some excitement in your kitchen....happy experimenting and fun..ciao..

English Vs BM

What an issue...and what's happening to our education system...in short..it has become a victim..the future generation...talking about being global...this is just pure nonsense...
For how long are we going to tolerate all this..can someone just try putting themself in the shoes of those children and those teachers...
Education is what will groom and shape the future generation who will in turn rule our country Malaysia...and at this point in time..the numerous times that I have come across candidates for interviews..the standard of their English command is a nightmare.
For every cabinet minister reshuffled...the education system is not spared..from one minister to another there is always changes...from English to BM..from BM to English...back and forth.
How many of their children are faithfully being "Malaysian educated"...lets just be fair and square with each other...there's no exception for anyone...if they think that to teach Maths and Science in BM will prove the better for us Malaysians...please make sure that their children are also studying right here in Malaysia...not overseas.
Being able to converse well in English language is an art itself...and being a Malaysian we can learn and grasp the BM language at any time....finally...please be kind to our education system...just maintain what we have now and let it grow and flourish to a greater heights....

Start Over...crosses my path today and it goes like this...

When you have trusted God and walked his way
When you have felt his hand lead you day by day
But your steps now take you another day...

Start over...
When you made your plans and they have gone awry
When you have tried your best and there's no more to try
When you have failed yourself and you don't know why...
Start over...
When you have told your friends what you plan to do
When you have trusted them and they did not come through
And you are all alone and it's up to you...
Start over...
When you have failed your kids and they are grown and gone
When you have done your best but it turned out wrong
And now your grandchildren comes along...
Start over...
When you have prayed to God so you know his will
When you have prayed and prayed and you don't know still
When you want to stop cause you've had your fill...
Start over...
When you think you are finished and want to quit
When you have bottomed out in life's deepest pit
When you have trried and tried to get out of it...
Start over...
When the year has been long and successes are few
When December comes and you are feeling blue
God gives a January just for you...
Start over...
means "Victories Won"
means "A race well run"
means "God's Will be Done"
And that means don't just sit there