My Moments

Sometimes the only reason I drop a line or two here is because of You...Pink Panther mode got triggered. With every news of death may it be friends or relatives the memories and pains of that time when we lost our battle came rushing in like bullet shots from a machine gun.

Our dearest friend Valentine return to our Lord when he too lost his battle to cancer yesterday morning. A great loss indeed to his love ones and those who knew him.

Praying that both of you will be granted graces of eternal life with our Lord and may your soul rest in peace.

( On a lighter funny note...please don't create havoc there ok )

A Taste of Honey and HIS Love

Dubro Jutro

Psalm 63:3 Because your Love is better than life..my lips will glorify thee...

I forgot about this...conveniently forgotten I gotta admit but this was a quick pick me up..HIS Love.
We are given those senses to feel it but endlessly failing to pass it onto our neighbors and friends. God Almighty give us a taste of your honey and grant us the grace to being able to share it.

HIS Will & Pathway

Dobro Jutro

Waking up to a real positive mode..God has been good all the time!!! So sorry for being blind and  having a cold lukewarm heart every now and then.. shutting out all channels of spiritual interventions..Oh Mama if only you could show thy face to your child..to see thy tears.

Blessed are those who have faith as tiny as a mustard seed??? Good Lord I beg of you to instill that within this soul of mine today and every single day  that am still walking towards your pathway. Take me and lead me I pray today. Amen

Respect & Love

Am writing at my corner again...loving this moment when i have time to write and pour out my 2-cents thought all to myself  and for my fellow page audience.

Just a short note..

Respect...a need to earn it?? Head scratching moment..
I don't earn and owns it at all. I believe that its what you are as a person..grind and bind into your personality. In today's life scene very few understand a word like respect and very few would give it a place of honor that it once had...

Alexandre Dumas: Without respect, love cannot go far or rise high; it is an angel but with one wing.

A comeback to my corner

Bumblebee making a come back for 2015....whereby my last posting was in 2013.
Today..1st August 2015...Going back to my old postings was like going back in a time machine. I first started this blog when Pink Panther requested me to record his journey with the deadly "C" but i wanted to do more than that cos there will come a time when my dearest beloved ones will peep at this blog of mine. So till then dearest corner of mine...stay put!!!

Ms Squirrel's A*/A/B for A Levels

The youngest thorns,pains and joy of my life...but yet she never fails to bring tears to my eyes with her achievements..once again I dedicate this posting to you Pink Panther. That's your baby Banoon!!
Another mile stone darling...Go on and follow your heart. I may have given you lots of pains and those silent tears but its part of my parenting ways and am sorry for having to bring you up the harsh way. I pray that God will continue to guide you. Fill you with wisdom and knowledge and that you learn to listen to those little whispers of God's well intent messages that are meant for you..above all may God's love surrounds you at all times..

Charraine CG Sudin turns 21...

This young girl turned 21 years old on 7th May, 2013
Charraine Cecilea Garuda Sudin...

another luv of my life..a jewel and sometimes a spiky thorn when we refuse to see eye to eye on issues.

No matter what Mami loves you darling...

Time really do fly and passes us by with no mercy. 

Girl..you have a long way to go..

May be not what you want in life but Mami pray and hope that it will

 help you through your life's journey.

Stay strong, chin up, butt out...hahaa..walk ahead and never look back darling...

I believe daddy would insists on it too.

We all got to do and play our roles right?

May our good and loving Lord continue to watch over you

 and guide you in all aspects of life.

Luv you so much...

Mami

Seeking Pink Panther...

Seeking and reaching out to you..
If only you know...
Why did you have to go..
Why Pink Panther?
Today I am going to close that chapter in my life..
No more...going to shake off that dust from the soles of my shoes and walk away..
Will never return to that episode...
No one deserved to be treated in such manner...
No one soul is without sin...
No one...

Come to me, who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest.

Today's reading flashes back....

My late Pink Panther once said this to me : Mami, once in a while you have to talk to a living person about your worries and burdens...

Since that day I always cling to this verse from Matthew and live by it. At times I do stumble and fall but the Lord is watching!!!
I used to confess about my weaknesses and failures in my spiritual life but today it brought me onto a new page. It struck me that instant at mass this morning...just thinking about our weaknesses,hardships,persecutions we are actually uniting ourselves to Christ. For it is when I am weak that I am strong!! It reveals to me what a forgiving God we have...even in our shortcomings HE is already one step ahead of us...to turn our misery into unseen blessings.

At today's 2nd reading (St Paul to the Corinthians 12:7-10)
I shall be very happy to make my weaknesses my special boast so that the power of Christ may stay over me.

God bless all

Another achievement from BB Yon...9A for SPM

Hey Pink Panther...she did it again...your baby girl scores 9A for her SPM!!! I know that you be beaming with pride and joy with this news....it was such an emotional moment for me....spent half of my morning...as usual... got nothing better things to do...but to cry my heart out while replying to all the sms. Full of joy for her and at the same time thinking of you...

Praise the Lord...all the anxieties,sleepless nights and not to mention the intimate conversations with God are worth it....after all those months...the waiting period finally over and now a new door opens up that leads to more corridors and pathways...waiting to be explored.

Yes Lord... there are times that we failed to see you at works in our life and we therefore plead for forgiveness. Please do not abandon us for the times that we failed you because of our plain weaknesses but continue to knock on the doors of our heart to help us stay tune to your ways and directions. Amen

2nd Year Without You...

15th December is here again....accompanied with sadness and tears to our eyes. The last few days the girls had been asking me: Mummy are you ok? And Charen this afternoon..sent me messages: Mummy....I hope you are ok....Today is just not normal at all.....

Yes dear...it's 2 years today that you left us and where we reluctantly let you go....to free you from all the pains. I know your pains and what you went through.... I know you fight so hard..to be strong and not just for yourself but for us too..the love ones you left behind. I remember whispering to your ears.....to let go when the time comes and to give you that little assurance that I Will be fine....and be strong like you.

I will forever be reminded of your endless jokes....And that..." Today is better than Yesterday". You just don't know and will never know how much we missed you Pink Panther..just to mention your name in our daily conversation will bring tears.

But then your memories will be our strength.There are things that we refused to change just to hold you close and that we can cling onto....

There are times that I really wished you to be around and be with us again because I know that you can handle issues better..whereby you are always so cool and positive and I am nothing like you.

Your 2 darling Chuchamunggas are doing great and they will definitely make you proud. They really do missed you so much...

I pray that the Lord Our God will grant mercy upon your soul and that you will enjoy the bliss of heaven and life eternal.

Daddy dearest...we luv you and we missed you...

.

For the love of a girl who turns 17 on 12th December...

Dear Pink Panther...see who turns 17 today...Miss Banoon!!!!! You were with our thoughts all the way dear...Charen came back from Malacca and we gave her a midnight birthday toast which i know you would be doing if you were still around...love uuuuuuuu....

Moving On....Hello Pink Panther...BB Yon is done with SPM and Sapura Smart School. The next destination is SC...

Sinead O'Connor - Nothing Compares To You (Lyrics).wmv

For Pink Panther...

O God, Merciful Father and God of all consolation

I come to you on behalf of my deceased husband.

Lord sometimes it is very hard to understand Your ways and to accept your will

Still, I trust in You, my Father.

Today I give to You the soul of Simon Sudin, my dearest beloved husband,

And I beg You to bring him into Your bosom.

He is your child, O Father

Have mercy on him.

Dear Lord Jesus

You are the resurrection and the Life

Just as Martha and Mary grieved for their brother Lazarus,

So I grieved for my dearest beloved spouse.

Even so Lord, I place all my trust and hope in YOU and in your promise of eternal life.

You died to save us,

And you are our Mediator with the Father.

Bring my dearest one into your presence in the company of the saints.

Mercifully grant him Your rest and joy in the light of his faithfulness to You and to his vocation.

Through the intercession of Mary,

May I one day join him in the complete bliss of the Beatific Vision.

O Mary, look upon my dearest one with pity and please bring him to Paradise, his true country.

In Jesus' Name I pray.

Eternal rest grant unto him, O Lord, and let perpetual light shine upon him.

may his soul and the souls of all the faithful departed through the mercy of God rest in peace.

Amen.

Faustina Faith Philia's Baptism

Faustina Faith Philia with her Aki Anyau & Nenek Chula

FFP with her Mummy & Mami Wai Judy

Nya sduai iya...Pitut & God Mum... Mami Wai Judy

Amen enggau Father John ko Faustina Faith Philia...

An occasion that is filled with rejoices of thanksgiving

for FFP's baptism dated 20th August 2011....finally its fulfilled through God's mighty plan..God be with us all...

How they have grown up...CCGS & PNBS

They are my angels when they cheer and brightened my "low and grey days"and my heartbreakers too when they are up to some mischief and the nonsense that teens grow up with these days. I am sure every parents go thru that so enjoy them while we can and before we realized it....they are on their way. A daily prayer and blessing for them is a must for me the minute they step their itchy twitching feet out of the house.

Girls...chuchamungas...forgive Mami if sometimes I failed to express my affection...I know both of you need lots of it...but heyyyyyy...we three still have each other...

PNBS....soon will be officially 17 years old by the end of the year...

with her God-mum Dorothy Adrian during her confirmation

the reluctant "piyunhantas"

CCGS ... is now 19 years old

with her Aki

with her camera

with her 19th birthday cake

with her God-mum Dorothy Adrian

Happenings in May 2011

Dear Pink Panther

Your Big Chuchamungga girl turns 19th years old on 7th May, 2011

She is quiet a character since you left us....

The month of May is very special to all of us...its Mother Mary's month, there's mine and Charen's birthday and our wedding anniversary and will ends up with Aki Amat's birthday.

Deep down in each of our heart and mind we really wish that you can be here with us.

We love and miss u....so much.

Act of Mercy...

While the whole world seems to rejoice in the death of Osama Bin Laden..this morning I begin to question myself...should i rejoice myself too? It is very disturbing for me indeed. We all know the violent and the barbaric acts attached to the late Osama but then who are we to judge him. I was sharing with a dear friend and I praise the Lord for I have a friend who share the same views as I do. I asked and which I believed to be the most silly question of the decade...well to me it is..."Shall we pray for Osama's soul or shall we continue to condemn and judged him?"

The answer was: OUR LORD DIED FOR THE WHOLE WORLD AND HE IS THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS THE RIGHT TO JUDGE AND SO OF COURSE WE MUST PRAY FOR OSAMA'S SOUL......

And so fellow Christians lets put aside our remarks and say a humble prayer for Osama's soul.

I just would like to take this opportunity to share our late Pope John Paul II's act of mercy and forgiveness towards Mehmet Ali Agca who attempted to shoot our Pope but failed in May 13, 1981.

Our Pope during Christmas 1983 visited Mehmet Ali Agca in prison...talked and forgave him and in February 2005 Pope John Paul II received a handwritten letter in Italian from Mehmet Ali Agca...wishing the pope a speedy recovery. Its touching but yet its a real life drama for us catholic christians....and so lets join hands and pray. God bless all.

NOVENA TO THE SACRED HEART OF JESUS

Praised be the name of Jesus Christ our Lord and redeemer...

Let us today start our above Novena on the 7th April, 2011 and ends on the 15th April,2011 and pray for the grace of freedom of religion practices, for all fellow Sarawakians to vote wisely and for all evil works that exists within this election period will varnish to the deepest hell and never to re-surface again. Amen.