NCI Hospital & Specialist - Scene 9

The dates...numbers and months rolling by and its unbelievable...today its 3rd November, 2009!!!!! Sighing endlessly...i don't see beautiful sunsets on the weekends anymore...so sad...anyway...Pink Panther's bone injection..Zometa is deferred to tomorrow. He complains of severe headaches to Dr Kana at the clinic this morning...may be due to the sleeping patterns and also the effects of the treatment. Hopefully tonight Pink Panther will sleeps soundly and vanished away those attacks of headaches by tomorrow...please,please..please.. Lord God Almighty come to our aid now and intervene....Amen

NCI Hospital & Specialist - Scene 8

Well today Thursday 29th October, 2009 marks the end of our Phase 1 journey at NCI Hospital & Specialist, Nilai..completed the radiotherapy treatment...later we went to see Dr Kana at his clinic and the decision on the final date to come back to NCI for Phase 2 was confirmed...6th December, 2009.
So that's a month break...for now we are still deciding on when is the best date to fly back...because we still need to come back to the clinic on Monday, 2nd November, 2009 for blood test and also for the Zometa injection to strengthen his bone structure or in other words to reduce any complications such as pain and fractures caused by the bone metastasis. We hope to be home in Bintulu after that and so...ciao to all ...

My BibleWalk...

My BibleWalk is my sharing of verses for the day...

Titus 3:1-15

1 Remind your people to submit to the government and its officers. They should be obedient always and ready to do what is good.
2 They must not speak evil of anyone and they must avoid quarreling. Instead they should be gentle and show true humility to everyone.
3 Once we, too were foolish and disobedient. We were misled by others and became slaves to many wicked desires and evil pleasures. Our lives were full of of evil and envy. We hated others, and they hated us. 4 But then God our Saviour showed us his kindness and love.
5 He saved us, not because of the good things we did, but because of his mercy. He washed away our sins and gave us a new life through the Holy Spirit.
6 He generously poured out the Spirit upon us because of what Jesus Christ our Saviour did.
7 He declared us not guilty because of his great kindness. And now we know that we will inherit eternal life.
8 These things I have told you are all true. I want you to insist on them so that everyone who trusts in God will be careful to do good deeds all the time. These things are good and beneficial for everyone.
9 Do not get involved in foolish discussions about spiritual pedigrees or in quarrels and fights about obedience to Jewish laws. These kinds of things are useless and a waste of times.
10 If anyone is causing divisions among you, give a first and second warning. After that, have nothing to with that person.
11 For people like that have turned away from the truth. They are sinning, and they condemn themselves.

NCI Hospital & Specialist - Scene 7

So today is Pink Panther's final chemo treatment for this Phase 1...and tomorrow will be his final radiotherapy. Pink Panther's condition still remains the same...nothing changes. Today met up with Dr Kana & Dr Selva...up to this date Pink Panther is progressing well. There has been a remarkable improvement since our departure from Normah Specialist Kuching. Dr Kana also shared that the lesion on his lung has also shrinked to a certain extent too after the 1st chemo was injected...finally that's the news that we all have been waiting and dying for...and it's an instant relief to the ears and comfort too.
So seeing Bintulu soon????? Heeee3...no comments...but my anxieties about certain issues and matters remained as a question mark...known to me alone. Taking one day at a time...
Anyway there is 3 weeks break from tomorrow till our next review session and the tentatively date is 19th November,2009. But we shall see how it goes...as we take our steps ....tutututt.... one day at a time...
So ciao...

My BumbleMumbles...

....My blue bleeding HEART...

Dear Lord...
It can be so heavy at times..the cross that I am carrying,dragging and holding on to...where do I go from here..what can I do about it? I know no one will understand..but what about YOU? Will you listen..will you lightened this burden..this pain? Sometimes it is easier said than done and at times I do feel the Spirit of strength overflowing within me...but you know Lord...no matter what others said..be it words of encouragement or comfort...the pains will always remained within my soul..till the moment and time comes...for the door of your kingdom opens up to receive me...i will continue to cry and weep in SILENT...where only YOU know all....

NCI Hospital & Specialist - Scene 6

Well...its been a long break...16th October, 2009 was the last blog posting from bumblebee's corner...we are going into the last week of October, 2009.

This morning...27th October, 2009 is exactly 2 months from where our journey started with our first visit to Timberland Medical Center in Kuching. How time flies..day in and day out..and here we are still in NCI...supposed to be our last week of treatment for this trip. Dr Kana says that last treatment will be this Thursday, 29th October, 2009 and by Friday morning we can pack our bags and fly home to Bintulu. The blood test taken today was really good...all blood counts are cooperating with Pink Panther...plus upon taking my advice to go to bed early...so that is a good rest and proper food intake. So at the point of writing this blog we have 2 more radiotherapy and 1 more chemotherapy to complete for this round until we come back again after 3 weeks break and tomorrow morning will be Pink Panther's chemo plus radiotherapy.
Overall..he is doing fine..no attacks of fever or vomiting. It was just the feeling of grogginess and lost of appetite for him after his last chemo which was on the 22nd October, 2009. However the mood swings is unbearable...sometimes i feel like screaming and saying...heyyyy...being a caregiver is also not so pleasant...please do spare me some kind and merciful thoughts too..after all I am only human and I do need some "TLC" moments at some point of time.





But each time when this unhealthy feelings comes by...a picture of Pink Panther looking and being so fragile and vulnerable floods my mind and it touches my heart and that somehow brought me down to earth...thumpedddd... and.... owchhhhh...it really hurts and so there goes my anger...O Lord pour upon me Spirit of Love,Joy,Patient and Understanding....Amen
Till then...ciao to all...

NCI Hospital & Specialist - Scene 5

Dear All..everything is good and well...that is what we pray and plan for in our deepest thoughts. So the days and dates comes rolling by us..sometimes I wake up in the morning..and ask myself...what's the date...and day? The mind can really failed me at times...being cooped up in this hospital..almost a month..come to think of it..arrived here 23rd September, 2009.

One thing for sure...we definitely get lots of peace here compared to Kuching...I cry out...Freedom..at long last...hahaaa...from those unbelievable so called comfort and caring individuals. Please do forgive me for sounding so ungrateful but then as the saying goes...too much of a good thing can be very damaging to our soul...but yet who will even bother to try to undertand us...however not all fits into that one category...God bless them.

Anyway...there was a change in the treatment schedule for Pink Panther...starting 15th October, 2009 he will undergo 10 sessions or fractions of radiotherapy and in between he will be given 2 rounds of chemotherapy...all these will end sometimes towards the end of October...and then it will be 3 weeks break...so the tentative date to come back to Nilai was 23rd November, 2009.