2nd Year Without You...

15th December is here again....accompanied with sadness and tears to our eyes. The last few days the girls had been asking me: Mummy are you ok? And Charen this afternoon..sent me messages: Mummy....I hope you are ok....Today is just not normal at all.....

Yes dear...it's 2 years today that you left us and where we reluctantly let you go....to free you from all the pains. I know your pains and what you went through.... I know you fight so hard..to be strong and not just for yourself but for us too..the love ones you left behind. I remember whispering to your ears.....to let go when the time comes and to give you that little assurance that I Will be fine....and be strong like you.

I will forever be reminded of your endless jokes....And that..." Today is better than Yesterday". You just don't know and will never know how much we missed you Pink Panther..just to mention your name in our daily conversation will bring tears.

But then your memories will be our strength.There are things that we refused to change just to hold you close and that we can cling onto....

There are times that I really wished you to be around and be with us again because I know that you can handle issues better..whereby you are always so cool and positive and I am nothing like you.

Your 2 darling Chuchamunggas are doing great and they will definitely make you proud. They really do missed you so much...

I pray that the Lord Our God will grant mercy upon your soul and that you will enjoy the bliss of heaven and life eternal.

Daddy dearest...we luv you and we missed you...

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For the love of a girl who turns 17 on 12th December...

Dear Pink Panther...see who turns 17 today...Miss Banoon!!!!! You were with our thoughts all the way dear...Charen came back from Malacca and we gave her a midnight birthday toast which i know you would be doing if you were still around...love uuuuuuuu....

Moving On....Hello Pink Panther...BB Yon is done with SPM and Sapura Smart School. The next destination is SC...

Sinead O'Connor - Nothing Compares To You (Lyrics).wmv

For Pink Panther...

O God, Merciful Father and God of all consolation

I come to you on behalf of my deceased husband.

Lord sometimes it is very hard to understand Your ways and to accept your will

Still, I trust in You, my Father.

Today I give to You the soul of Simon Sudin, my dearest beloved husband,

And I beg You to bring him into Your bosom.

He is your child, O Father

Have mercy on him.

Dear Lord Jesus

You are the resurrection and the Life

Just as Martha and Mary grieved for their brother Lazarus,

So I grieved for my dearest beloved spouse.

Even so Lord, I place all my trust and hope in YOU and in your promise of eternal life.

You died to save us,

And you are our Mediator with the Father.

Bring my dearest one into your presence in the company of the saints.

Mercifully grant him Your rest and joy in the light of his faithfulness to You and to his vocation.

Through the intercession of Mary,

May I one day join him in the complete bliss of the Beatific Vision.

O Mary, look upon my dearest one with pity and please bring him to Paradise, his true country.

In Jesus' Name I pray.

Eternal rest grant unto him, O Lord, and let perpetual light shine upon him.

may his soul and the souls of all the faithful departed through the mercy of God rest in peace.

Amen.

Faustina Faith Philia's Baptism

Faustina Faith Philia with her Aki Anyau & Nenek Chula

FFP with her Mummy & Mami Wai Judy

Nya sduai iya...Pitut & God Mum... Mami Wai Judy

Amen enggau Father John ko Faustina Faith Philia...

An occasion that is filled with rejoices of thanksgiving

for FFP's baptism dated 20th August 2011....finally its fulfilled through God's mighty plan..God be with us all...

How they have grown up...CCGS & PNBS

They are my angels when they cheer and brightened my "low and grey days"and my heartbreakers too when they are up to some mischief and the nonsense that teens grow up with these days. I am sure every parents go thru that so enjoy them while we can and before we realized it....they are on their way. A daily prayer and blessing for them is a must for me the minute they step their itchy twitching feet out of the house.

Girls...chuchamungas...forgive Mami if sometimes I failed to express my affection...I know both of you need lots of it...but heyyyyyy...we three still have each other...

PNBS....soon will be officially 17 years old by the end of the year...

with her God-mum Dorothy Adrian during her confirmation

the reluctant "piyunhantas"

CCGS ... is now 19 years old

with her Aki

with her camera

with her 19th birthday cake

with her God-mum Dorothy Adrian

Happenings in May 2011

Dear Pink Panther

Your Big Chuchamungga girl turns 19th years old on 7th May, 2011

She is quiet a character since you left us....

The month of May is very special to all of us...its Mother Mary's month, there's mine and Charen's birthday and our wedding anniversary and will ends up with Aki Amat's birthday.

Deep down in each of our heart and mind we really wish that you can be here with us.

We love and miss u....so much.

Act of Mercy...

While the whole world seems to rejoice in the death of Osama Bin Laden..this morning I begin to question myself...should i rejoice myself too? It is very disturbing for me indeed. We all know the violent and the barbaric acts attached to the late Osama but then who are we to judge him. I was sharing with a dear friend and I praise the Lord for I have a friend who share the same views as I do. I asked and which I believed to be the most silly question of the decade...well to me it is..."Shall we pray for Osama's soul or shall we continue to condemn and judged him?"

The answer was: OUR LORD DIED FOR THE WHOLE WORLD AND HE IS THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS THE RIGHT TO JUDGE AND SO OF COURSE WE MUST PRAY FOR OSAMA'S SOUL......

And so fellow Christians lets put aside our remarks and say a humble prayer for Osama's soul.

I just would like to take this opportunity to share our late Pope John Paul II's act of mercy and forgiveness towards Mehmet Ali Agca who attempted to shoot our Pope but failed in May 13, 1981.

Our Pope during Christmas 1983 visited Mehmet Ali Agca in prison...talked and forgave him and in February 2005 Pope John Paul II received a handwritten letter in Italian from Mehmet Ali Agca...wishing the pope a speedy recovery. Its touching but yet its a real life drama for us catholic christians....and so lets join hands and pray. God bless all.

NOVENA TO THE SACRED HEART OF JESUS

Praised be the name of Jesus Christ our Lord and redeemer...

Let us today start our above Novena on the 7th April, 2011 and ends on the 15th April,2011 and pray for the grace of freedom of religion practices, for all fellow Sarawakians to vote wisely and for all evil works that exists within this election period will varnish to the deepest hell and never to re-surface again. Amen.

My Pink Panther

I browse your FB and reading all the past postings...miss you...

OST Lagenda Budak Setan - Bila Cinta with lyric

Prayer for the Dead - Queen of the Rosary

A very beautiful prayer and somehow today I was so touched after reciting it...though I have been reciting it for ages...today was exceptional...may be that's why Mother Mary says: To pray with our heart and not our lips...have a blessed day to all.

Queen of the Rosary

Thou didst rejoice in God thy Savior, consenting to be the Mother of Him who would bring salvation to souls.

Thou didst announce His mercy as extending from generation to generation.

Thou didst proclaim His kindness to the lowly, His mercy in feeding the hungry, His pity in remembering His servants.

Mother of Jesus, appeal to Him, therefore, on behalf of his servants, the souls in purgatory crying from the depths and hungering for the countenance of God, that they too may rejoice in His salvation.

Queen of the Rosary

Thou didst suffer with Jesus in His Passion, accepting the office of Mother of mankind at the foot of the cross.

Behold, Mother, thy children whom He commended to thy care.

Behold the souls ransomed with the blood of thy Son.

Behold the just suffering in purgatory, who ask to be remembered by thee.

Mother of mankind, speak to thy son on behalf of those souls we commend to thee, that they may be speedily released from pain and admitted to Paradise, to the company of Jesus and thee.

Queen of the Rosary

Thou has be enthroned in heaven, not only for thine own sake but also for ours.

To thy hands has been committed the distribution of favors and graces.

Thy power reaches from the Church Triumphant to the Church Militant and the Church Suffering.

To Thee then, O Queen of mercy, who dwells in the heavens, we banished children of Eve lift up our eyes and hearts on behalf of the souls of the departed, that thou look with favor upon them and bring them from captivity into the freedom of glorious Zion.

Queen of the Rosary

help our dear ones who have departed this life; our spouse, parents,pastors,relatives,friends,benefactors,associates of the rosary and every suffering and deserving soul, that their night of sorrow being ended they may be born to the eternal dawn.

Offer for them thy joys,sorrows,glories, that thy power may supply what is lacking in our won, thy holiness for our sinfulness, thy love for our indifference, thy power for our weakness.

Win for those whom we have lost, the companionship of angels and saints in dwellings of light and peace; obtain for us that we may rejoin them one day in happiness unending.

Amen.

A Bonus Conversation for the Year 2011

Happy New Year...never too late...9 days of the Year 2011. May our Lord grant us happiness,joy,peace and all the blessings and graces to enable us to continue on this life's journey.

The bonus conversation for the year...is between my dad and myself. It was right after the contractor completed the installation of the laminated floor to my kitchen...

SRS: So I guess you are not coming back to Sarawak anymore?

I was stunned...shocked...speechless...and facing him I asked...

Me: Daddy...what do you mean?

SRS: Well...look at this place...its already a home. You have everything here...you made everything fit so nicely.

I wanted to cry listening to what my dad have said...

Me: Daddy...how can you say that? Of course I am still coming home to BINTULU...which is my home and I am still keeping that house in Bintulu. That is home to the children and myself...its just that for now I need to get away from there...away from those memories. This one will be our 2nd home and I need to make it "homely" otherwise I will never get to settle down here...and its a gift to my two girls...a place they can called another home which is away from Bintulu...

SRS: Ok...and he turned away...

That conversation remains and lingers in my mind till today...and daddy has been calling me everyday since he went home last Friday...