WITHOUT YOU...

Dear Dadi

I am not going to count the days anymore...the days that you left us...this will be the last I guess...its 105 days since you been gone. Its not doing me any good but that does not mean that i love and miss you less...it is far from that. I just refuse to think of it how long you have been missing from my life. It can really brings me down...the wounds will re-opened and I will have to start from day 1 again.

I finally come to an end...reading that book..Left to Tell... and the final chapters reveal to me of God's healing...Dear Lord I now surrender to you Simon's soul...that YOU will hold him close to YOU and that you will watch over his soul in Heaven. I pray too that my tears will dry up and my pain eased and that I will no longer agonized over my loss...that I will placed you dearest in the hands of our Dear Lord and that you are forever beside the Almighty One in HEAVEN.

Grant O Dear Lord eternal rest upon the soul of Simon Sudin and let your perpetual light shine upon him and may his soul rest in peace....Amen

Charraine Cecelia Garuda

Dadi...Once again this strong-willed girl of ours managed to achieve the best that she could despite the "tsunami" that evolves around her and us. You must be saying now..."I told you so..." and I am sure that you are also proud of her. Now we can tell her to go and chase that rainbow of hers...that nothing will and can stand in her journey of success because what she has been thru is more than enough to proof that she can do it...if you believe you can...YOU CAN...your favourite remarks...To Charraine...mami just want to say congratulations and luvs and muahmuahhh you...

WITHOUT YOU

Looking so de Mafia...during one of his feeling good days

Hello Dadi...yesterday evening the urge to drive to Nilai was so strong and BB Yon and myself went with the intention to get some materials there but I strongly believed that it was for a different reason. I have been here for a month plus but yet I have not driven myself to Nilai despite the fact that I have conquered all areas with the aid of my sincere Mr GPS...never ever leave home without it!!!! Upon reaching Nilai and driving along all those so familiar roads and landmarks my heart was beating at a rapid pace and when it comes to NCI direction my tears were beyond control...so I detour the roundabout and make a come back to Nilai Square.

Dadi
I thought I was ready for it but the pain is still so raw. I just cannot bring myself to be where we spent the last few months together...
I know you will ask me in such a way..."Hey...why all these tears....stupid...". What do I care... if I am indeed being stupid and silly? Its for the love of you....Ciao Pink Panther...