NCI Hospital & Specialist - Scene 5

Dear All..everything is good and well...that is what we pray and plan for in our deepest thoughts. So the days and dates comes rolling by us..sometimes I wake up in the morning..and ask myself...what's the date...and day? The mind can really failed me at times...being cooped up in this hospital..almost a month..come to think of it..arrived here 23rd September, 2009.

One thing for sure...we definitely get lots of peace here compared to Kuching...I cry out...Freedom..at long last...hahaaa...from those unbelievable so called comfort and caring individuals. Please do forgive me for sounding so ungrateful but then as the saying goes...too much of a good thing can be very damaging to our soul...but yet who will even bother to try to undertand us...however not all fits into that one category...God bless them.

Anyway...there was a change in the treatment schedule for Pink Panther...starting 15th October, 2009 he will undergo 10 sessions or fractions of radiotherapy and in between he will be given 2 rounds of chemotherapy...all these will end sometimes towards the end of October...and then it will be 3 weeks break...so the tentative date to come back to Nilai was 23rd November, 2009.

NCI Hospital & Specialists Centre...Scene 4

Hello there...my avid and keen readers who comes and go from the bumblebee's corner...
Pink Panther was exposed to my blog when we were strikened with this notorious cancer...and he asked me...Mami why bumblebee?
Yeahhh...why bumblebee? Now I wonder too..why that? May be its just me...buzzing left and right..in and out of people's life and scene...and its cute....hahaaaa...
Anyway...back to my scene...at Nilai Cancer Institute...so far we were handled with tender loving care all the way...by the centre's oncologist Dr Kananathan..bless him Lord for his gentle ways and patience and understanding. The 25th September, Friday 2009 we were sent to National Cancer Society in KL for Pink Panther's bone scan...a real satisfaction and a real comfort to me knowing that the spread of the notorious Mr Cancer is only at some points which were known to us earlier and not as I have gravely imagined when it was explained by the doctors in Kuching. According to them Pink Panther's prognosis were not so promising...into stage 4 and I was even given 6 months...Can you my dear bloggers imagine that? I was told to go home...and get things in order...is that supposed to make me feel better...was it supposed to comfort me in this dispairing moment? God...please be there for me...that was all that i whispered to my mind and heart...when I do fall please Lord, provide me with all the cushions...and make my fall a feather light one...and capture me in your mighty and loving comforting arms...the picture here....remember that furry mammal..Tarzan and Jane...that is what i will need...catch me please Lord when I do fall and collapsed...Amen
So back to Pink Panther and his treatment... a chemo port was planted on the evening of 24th September, 2009..that's where all the medications go thru..no more pricking on the blood veins where it leaves your body with black and blue bruises and daily blood tests were done to monitor his blood count..red and white blood count..while in between planning for his treatment were laid out and explained by Dr Kana. On Wednesday, 30th September, 2009 was planned..Pink Panther's 1st chemotherapy...the medications invovled were Cetuximab,Vinorelbine and Cisplatin....what a mouthful that is...anyway they are all drugs to combat them cancer cells. The 1st reaction to Cetuximab brought Pink Panther to the North Pole...he was shivering throughout...with high fever. The joke here was..he saw penguins...and for myself...speechless beyond words..i watched all the medical administrations given to him..and coincidently it was the hour of mercy...so dearest St Faustina I prayed for her intercession to the dear Merciful Divine Master...thru the Chaplet of DIVINE MERCY....once again...the Lord let his presence known to me...he is indeed walking beside me...at the very significant moment...a time of need thru this trial...Praise the Lord!!! The chemotherapy was continued the next day with the other 2 medications. On the 2nd October, 2009 we were discharged from the ward and we moved to my room on the residential wing. Then the day came...Saturday, 3rd October, 2009..what i feared the most...the much awaited reaction..FEVER...he was shivering and came the fever...immediately called the nurse and we were told to go to the emergency ward for assistance...in the end we were admitted....back to the ward again...so the continuos up and down of fever continued for next few days...the blood count was badly affected...injections were given to perk up the body's own production of the white blood cells..so that weekend was spent back in the ward again. On 5th October, 2009 morning we were told by Dr Kana that the schedule for the next chemotherapy was cancelled..due to the fact he needed time to strengthen his system..body resistance. The next chemotherapy session will be scheduled for next week..tentatively on the 14th and 15th October, 2009 so its a good break for me to feed him and regain his strength....so ciao to all who peeps into bumblebee's corner.

Pink Panther and Me...Scene 3

The surgery is over and done with...now we wait if its a success..eliminating the pain and numbness and to get back the strength. Apart from all these we are already considering into moving some where else to seek further treatment and chances of recovery. This was a very difficult decision to make but the recommendations to move on was so strong...now for a moment we stop thinking of the conveniences and the comfort zone that we are getting and receiving while in Normah Kuching...so we pray for guidance in our decision and based on that prayers Pink Panther finally decides to move to NCI Hospital & Specialist, KL. So the date to move was Wednesday 23rd September, 2009...with all the transfer requirements made we finally get to Nilai at 1430 hrs...everything was so smoothly done.

Pink Panther and Me...Scene 2

Home..onward to Bintulu...spent a few days at home...waiting for the biopsy result and on Thursday 3rd September, 2009 we left home again and this time straight to Normah Specialist Kuching...appointment with the Orthopedic Specialist..admitted to the ward for further scans and X-ray onto the bump on the forehead,lung and spine. The next day the much awaited result of the biopsy was known and it was related to the earlier lung biopsy. On Saturday 5th September, 2009 we met up with oncologist from SGH for further diagnosed and treatment plans were laid out for us. The 1st radiotheraphy treatment was scheduled on 7th September, 2009 and carried out at SGH onto the forehead and the spine for 5 times ending 11th September,2009.
Following this the next treatment plan is the lung part for 10 times and it was scheduled on the 14th September,2009 and to end on the 25th September, 2009 and it was after undergoing 2 radiotheraphy treatment on the lung that complications sets in...Pink Panther could not go for his toilet business as usual and the strength to his right legs was reduced tremendously. After consultation with the Orthopedic specialist an urgent surgery was needed to relieve him of the pain and numbness on his right leg and also to ease the bowel movement problems. So surgery was set up on the 16th September, 2009 to decompress the nerve on the spine. With that done the next thing was to wait for the uncertainties that comes with the surgery...ciao for now...to be continued...

Pink Panther and Me....Scene 1

Prayers comes flooding in...words of comfort too were pouring in...from friends and relatives..thanking all who came with good wishes and not forgetting the baskets of fruits and gifts to share in this time of sufferings...what to say then? I rather remain in my silence and endlessly converse with God. I pray that our merciful Lord will pour upon Pink Panther his Spirit of Counsel and healing continuosly.

This Scene 1 started with our initial visit to Timberland Medical Centre in Kuching dated 27th August, 2009 for further check up with the ENT specialist...CT scan and also a biopsy was done on his lung. The next day appointment was to Normah specialist Centre Kuching to see an Orthopedic Specialist for the pain that was troubling him in his right leg. There X-Rays and MRI was scheduled for him. Once this was over we were told to come back in a few days time for the report and by then the biopsy report will be known....so off we went home to Bintulu...that was a relief...and the anxiety begins for us all...but yet I know with God's amazing grace we will sail thru this moment....

Pink Panther and Me - A new episode

Gospa...please intercede for my needs and my loved ones...Amen

September 2009..a new beginning and episode that will remain close to my heart...I firmly believe that this is God's work...HIS mysterious ways in working his way into our life...his creations...shaping us into his likeness. When we look at ourselves left and right..up and down...it will get more complicated by the day..questions wander through our thoughts...what am I? Who am I? Why is this happening? What have I done or what have I not done? Where is HE that promises to be near me when the going gets though? Where is HE that will catch me when I fall?
Well...surprises and surprises...HE is there...here and everywhere...no mankind will provide...only the GOD Almighty...who loves us through and through..knows no bounds...loving us endlessly..it is just Us...so blind and ignorant and insensitive to HIS most Holy Presence...remember that inner thoughts that speaks to us...now that is HIM...please receive and listen to HIM attentively. HE knows all and listens...just that sometimes we demand all things to be dealt with in an express manner. So to all my friends,relatives,loved ones and the "Angels of Medugorje" listen with your ears...pray with your loving heart and act with a gentle grace.....ciao..God blesses all who visits...

Sunsets...my Passion

Some of the sunsets photos that i took and never get to share it on any social networks...
Sunsets...always fascinates me...the moments so captivating...gives me a nice feeling of tranquility..peace..and serenity...the effects of sunsets to me..



Sunsets...God's mighty works...separates day and night
When it comes...we call it the end of another day's activities...
God's living creatures returns to its home...
Time to rest..time to ponder...time to pray...for thanksgiving
The blessings and the graces that we received for the day...




You...Sunsets.. is a magnificent art that God portrays for us mankind
And for us to indulge in its natural beauty...
To remind us...what an awesome God we have...



Come... Sunsets...be there for me...today...tomorrow...and forever
As my awesome God does...will remain there...
Always there...day and night.